Juggling A Dream
If you are home, sit back and relax. If you are at work, get ready to minimize your screen because this one’s going to be a recap of the last few weeks!
First off, I am glad to be back. Perhaps some of you didn’t even notice I was gone but maybe there’s a group of you that’s eager to know how everything’s been since my last blog. I took a short break because I had other things that I had to take care of.
I’m not going to lie, I’ve been so tempted to delete my last blog. I’ve gone back and forth wondering if I shared too much. However, I came to realize that so many people are dealing with the same things in life. So many people are dealing with delayed dreams, long-term prayers, challenges and more. Since my last post, which was about a month ago (can you believe it?!), I’ve had so many people come up to me and tell me that they’ve had moments like these before. Trust me, I’m still biting my nails about it but I know that there’s a group of people needing community.
During this last month I’ve thought a lot about how people share their story (or testimony) AFTER they’ve gone through something. It’s usually because they feel they’ve overcome that particular part of their life. However, I created this blog so that I could share my journey with you. I want to be open with you because there IS a reason why we face challenges. After all, this blog is about how I juggle with different roles in life. Forgive me for basically avoiding this blog for almost a month now but I am back! So I wanted to do a HUGE life update and catch you up!
Let me start off by answering everyone’s main question. Yes I am still at my job and it will be over in 10 weeks. They gave us a 3 month notice. This is kind of a bittersweet thing because for one, it’s given me more time- but two, it’s dreadful and suspenseful! I’ll keep you updated. Secondly, I want to say that I know this isn’t like a LIFE CRISIS, I was just overwhelmed because what had happened in my previous jobs, etc. However, I just felt the need to share with you what life is really like, especially if you do NOT have a 9-5 dream.
You see for the longest time my husband and I have been working on growing our ministry. We feel called to do it full time. So for the last 7 years we’ve been pouring into it with all we got. However, people think that we do this for FUN and just for show or sometimes believe it's a hobby- but for us, it means the world. For us it means following God, trusting Him, pouring everything into it. So sometimes while everyone’s out and about, we are at home working, brainstorming, responding to emails, or rehearsing. This really takes up a HUGE part of our lives. It would be too hard to not blog about it. Our music is meant to connect people with God and this blog is to connect with people.
What’s my hesitation? For the longest time I felt that MUSIC WAS EVERYTHING but I realized that thereare so many aspects to my life that make me, me. So even if music wasn’t there, I can still be SANDY! This is why I created this blog- I wanted to show you that I am a regular young married woman, who needs to work, has bills, is a wife, is a Christian in the 21st century and that music wasn’t the ONLY thing I did.
So I say all this to say that the week I got laid off was the same week we filmed our music video and I just remember being so stressed out but also just trusting God. I was trying to stay focused. After the week of the music video , Chris and I led worship at one more church and left that night to catch the first flight the next day because: he had to work, it was my mom’s 50th birthday, his sister got married, AND we were leading worship at our home church in the Bay Area. Why am I telling you this? Because by now you have to believe that I wore the same mascara for 2 days in a row! I was basically in the middle of planing the video and traveling but then on the tab over I wondering where my next job is going to be at. Anyone else? I just felt overwhelmed but just kept taking deep breaths and praying and trusting.
I am feeling a lot more at peace now as I have an awesome community around me. God has blessed me with an amazing family and friends and of course the best husband in the world! Thank you Jesus, lol!
One thing that's for sure is that I want to keep this blog and I want to keep connecting with dreamers out there. I want to keep connecting with people that juggle with a lot or maybe have different projects/businesses that they are working at all while having a family and being an average person.
What’s your daydream? What are you currently doing now to reach your ultimate dream? I would love to here your story! Let’s connect.
Later this week I will share how I've been managing short and long term stress. Stay tuned.